i hate it here so much. i want to die. i wasted so much time for nothing. i could have finished that dumbass assignment in like 1 hour but i just refused to do the work because i was lazy. now it's 5:44 fucking pm, i need to wake up in less than 3 hours, and i will genuinely not survive without 7 hours of sleep. this is really bad.
i really hope i can survive tomorrow. i might need to do a replay of class of '09 just to feel a bit better about myself. because this is absolutely terrible. i can't live like this.
next semester i will lock in. i will do all of my work. i will be proud of myself and the work that i create. i will not doomscroll. i will live life on my own terms. because if i am tired of this reality, i can just as easily create a new one.
i have my own free will. i can do whatever the fuck i want without worrying about what anyone else things. i can finally become free. the only thing holding me back is myself. i am hiding from my true potential.
man i wish my life wasn't so sad sometimes. but its okay. it happens to the best of us. bad things are temporary, and good things are bound to happen.
